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I don't think anyone will see this, but Jeenso is kind of a dead identity. I grew out of her, I guess. Something I miss about back then is I would just draw things even though I clearly was not very good, just because I wanted to see it. Nowadays I have to like... justify anything I do. I end up saying no, that's probably a waste of time. But I still love drawing. So I came back today because I realize the thing that kept me drawing was having friends who also drew and we'd share ideas and draw them just because. I forgot the joy that brings. And maybe that was my motivation. I never thought about it. Ultimately, I want to draw because there I things I want to communicate through art. But the thing that kept me practicing and trying was having this space with my friends. I've been away from community for a while, I kind of don't know how to get back into it. These days I think art communities (like to find friends, not just publicize art) are on Discord? Like youtubers/instagram
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I just read my old journals and I want to die, I sounded like a totally different person then. I feel so old in comparison now. (I'm only 19, but the mental difference from 15 is wildly different. Excited to be like. 25 and look back at my 19 yr old thoughts.)
I was somewhat more cheerful at the time though? I actually liked people? Now I'm constantly seeking solitude. I am not really happy with the attitude I have come to develop over my time in college, but at least I am aware of and want to change it, I suppose.
I am wondering where should I start posting my art, but first I need art to post lol... I am hoping to stop letting my perfecti
I want to make a new account.
Firstly, I miss old DeviantART.
Secondly, why am still awake at 4:42 AM?
Thirdly, I want to return to the community here, but leave this account and all it's weabishness behind. Also, it's just become too cluttered to organize anymore. I'd rather have a fresh start.
But I want to take my name with me. The struggle.
Hope you all are well, and if anyone actually reads these, please comment. I'll look back soon.
-J
'I'm still alive...'
Hey, all. I just wanted to stay I'm still alive, despite being inactive. It's not that I do not want to be active, but I have nothing to post, and other things to attend to in these months... I have many ideas swimming around all the time but I have not drawn seriously for such a long time, it's hard to get back in to it. I really do hope to return properly some day. I don't know if that can be even this summer. Perhaps the next one.
Seriously, it's really frustrating to have all these ideas for stories, games, or artwork, and not having decent time to sit down and flesh them out. But, that is life... Hobbies will have to take a backseat for
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I shall wait for some more of your beautiful art~ <333
And I drew my part of the trade a long time ago but... I might redraw it. ono
And I drew my part of the trade a long time ago but... I might redraw it. ono