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Good morning, afternoon, or otherwise.
It's been a while. I still have not drawn for ages. I miss drawing, but I can't find the motivation or time. However, today I finished my homework with some time left over... there are 18 minutes until the next class...
btw if you didn't already know the black butler soundtrack is beautiful and i could crey real tears
Oh, uh, yeah, it's my birthday today... I'm 15. Usually the age doesn't set in until half a year after the birthday, I have known from experience... I still feel like some stupid 14 year old. Ah, well. I hope that with this new age, I can be a better person.
That sounded really cheesy, but it's true. That's all I want
Also for my birthday I wish I could go home... but I made several plans with my friends, so I couldn't do that this year... In a few weekends, I can go home for Long Winter Weekend 8D
I always feel bad saying "I miss my parents" or "I want to go home" because i live like 15 minutes away and then i have friends whose parents are on the other side of the world
And I chose to live these 15 minutes away, while they did not. So I try not to mention it. Despite that, I still miss my parents all the time.
because being around people all the fucking time is like "hoely shat frackles"
but I still like to be here because I think I've become a better student. Plus.... the internet is nicer....
But speaking of the internet, some idiot used Bittorrent to download Paranormal Activity 3, so our internet provider put some restrictions on our internet.... dude... seriously... Bittorrent??
for paranormal actiVITY THREE??
Well, I'm not really sure what the point of this journal entry was, but... yeah. I hope you all are doing well! I'm alright, despite being slightly tired. But I think it's a satisfying kind of exhaustion. I've been doing pretty well in school (except that onE CLASS SIGHS LOUDLY) so that's not a huge problem...
I wonder if anyone actually cares about these. Not in a "man i bet no one cares about me" kind of way but a "dude I wouldn't read what someone was saying about their life either" kind of way.
Well
maybe soemtimes
bc i'm creepy--
okay i should stop writing before some teachers accidentally looks over my shoulder and sees what weird shit i'm typing
Fare thee well, you all.
It's been a while. I still have not drawn for ages. I miss drawing, but I can't find the motivation or time. However, today I finished my homework with some time left over... there are 18 minutes until the next class...
btw if you didn't already know the black butler soundtrack is beautiful and i could crey real tears
Oh, uh, yeah, it's my birthday today... I'm 15. Usually the age doesn't set in until half a year after the birthday, I have known from experience... I still feel like some stupid 14 year old. Ah, well. I hope that with this new age, I can be a better person.
That sounded really cheesy, but it's true. That's all I want
Also for my birthday I wish I could go home... but I made several plans with my friends, so I couldn't do that this year... In a few weekends, I can go home for Long Winter Weekend 8D
I always feel bad saying "I miss my parents" or "I want to go home" because i live like 15 minutes away and then i have friends whose parents are on the other side of the world
And I chose to live these 15 minutes away, while they did not. So I try not to mention it. Despite that, I still miss my parents all the time.
because being around people all the fucking time is like "hoely shat frackles"
but I still like to be here because I think I've become a better student. Plus.... the internet is nicer....
But speaking of the internet, some idiot used Bittorrent to download Paranormal Activity 3, so our internet provider put some restrictions on our internet.... dude... seriously... Bittorrent??
for paranormal actiVITY THREE??
Well, I'm not really sure what the point of this journal entry was, but... yeah. I hope you all are doing well! I'm alright, despite being slightly tired. But I think it's a satisfying kind of exhaustion. I've been doing pretty well in school (except that onE CLASS SIGHS LOUDLY) so that's not a huge problem...
I wonder if anyone actually cares about these. Not in a "man i bet no one cares about me" kind of way but a "dude I wouldn't read what someone was saying about their life either" kind of way.
Well
maybe soemtimes
bc i'm creepy--
okay i should stop writing before some teachers accidentally looks over my shoulder and sees what weird shit i'm typing
Fare thee well, you all.
oh deviantART, you and i go way back
I don't think anyone will see this, but Jeenso is kind of a dead identity. I grew out of her, I guess. Something I miss about back then is I would just draw things even though I clearly was not very good, just because I wanted to see it. Nowadays I have to like... justify anything I do. I end up saying no, that's probably a waste of time. But I still love drawing. So I came back today because I realize the thing that kept me drawing was having friends who also drew and we'd share ideas and draw them just because. I forgot the joy that brings. And maybe that was my motivation. I never thought about it. Ultimately, I want to draw because there I things I want to communicate through art. But the thing that kept me practicing and trying was having this space with my friends. I've been away from community for a while, I kind of don't know how to get back into it. These days I think art communities (like to find friends, not just publicize art) are on Discord? Like youtubers/instagram
HAHAHAHA
I just read my old journals and I want to die, I sounded like a totally different person then. I feel so old in comparison now. (I'm only 19, but the mental difference from 15 is wildly different. Excited to be like. 25 and look back at my 19 yr old thoughts.)
I was somewhat more cheerful at the time though? I actually liked people? Now I'm constantly seeking solitude. I am not really happy with the attitude I have come to develop over my time in college, but at least I am aware of and want to change it, I suppose.
I am wondering where should I start posting my art, but first I need art to post lol... I am hoping to stop letting my perfecti
I want to make a new account.
Firstly, I miss old DeviantART.
Secondly, why am still awake at 4:42 AM?
Thirdly, I want to return to the community here, but leave this account and all it's weabishness behind. Also, it's just become too cluttered to organize anymore. I'd rather have a fresh start.
But I want to take my name with me. The struggle.
Hope you all are well, and if anyone actually reads these, please comment. I'll look back soon.
-J
'I'm still alive...'
Hey, all. I just wanted to stay I'm still alive, despite being inactive. It's not that I do not want to be active, but I have nothing to post, and other things to attend to in these months... I have many ideas swimming around all the time but I have not drawn seriously for such a long time, it's hard to get back in to it. I really do hope to return properly some day. I don't know if that can be even this summer. Perhaps the next one.
Seriously, it's really frustrating to have all these ideas for stories, games, or artwork, and not having decent time to sit down and flesh them out. But, that is life... Hobbies will have to take a backseat for
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I read it, it's kinda amusing. I'll wish you happy birthday later, when it sinks in, then.
Btw, i think you shouldn't use those bad words.
Btw, i think you shouldn't use those bad words.